The girl, the gunshot
The park - games and confessions
Kevin’s room- cuddles and conversations
Bedrooms - the Bible
The Park- understandings
G’s room –prayers and decisions
The girl, the gunshot Part 2
Is it forgivable?
G-Georgia (Brandon’s Best Friend)
B- Brandon (Georgia’s best friend)
K- Kevin (Brandon’s boyfriend)
Hello, my names Kevin and I’d like to tell you a story, if that’s alright by you. The story is true, for me as it is for many and unfortunately it’s not a happy story. It’s not got a fairytale ending. But it is important; at least I think it is. Maybe you will as well.
The girl and the gunshot
A girl stands centre stage back to the audience looking into a full length mirror. She holds a pistol in her hand. A door creaks and she turns, bringing the gun up and aiming off stage.
Light go out.
A shot is heard.
Girl’s voice whispering- I had to save you for once.
The Park- Games and Confessions
Light come back on.
Teenagers in a park. Girl is standing straight backed against a tree and pretending to be held captive. Boy has his fingers in a pistol shape and is acting as a ninja as he makes his way towards her.
G- (Laughing) Help, help.
B-Do not fear, fair maiden I will save you.
(Shoots towards the tree) Bang, bang, bang. Ha, Ha!
Girl falls to the ground holding her chest, acting dead, pretending the shot had hit her and not her captor. He runs over places a foot lightly on her stomach, laughing, as he claims his victory.
G- Can I get up now?
B- (Mocking) You are dead, and dead people can’t move. (Gloating) See, you really should learn how to protect yourself, that tree got you far too easily, in fact I’m pretty sure you haven’t survived since we were five and the tree branch broke and..
G- …you got scared and ran away… Oh my God I remember that. You realize you could have just not shot me in the first place?
B- Yes but where would the fun be in that? And besides if I didn’t kill you the bad people would have.
After a minute of gloating he too falls dramatically to the ground groaning as his head makes a thudding noise as it hit the ground.
B- (Sheepishly rubbing the back of his head) How do you stand that? (Propping himself up on his elbows to look at her)
(She sits up now making no effort to answer his question until she is on feet. She shrugs in answer to his question as she helps him to his feet.
He leans over to kiss her forehead.)
G- Work? Because I know you have that appointment on Monday and aren’t going to have time to finish it then.
B- Aghh, don’t remind me (slings his arm over her shoulder and pulls his phone out of his pocket with his other hand. Starts texting) come on we can drop by your place on the way to mine so that you can grab your stuff and then we can pick Kevin up on the way home.
G- (Shoots him a glare before raising one eyebrow.)
B- What? (Looking down at phone and laughing at text)
G- (Scoffing) Really? Kevin? He’s like the gayest guy in the world! (Whining) Come on, the other week he asked me if I had ever watched the entire Lord of the Rings extended edition films back to back with out going to the bathroom and then followed that up with telling me that I need to re-dye my roots.
B- Well the second part is true. As for the "Kevin’s a dork part" did you even consider that’s why I like him? Because he’s a dork. Because he’s just like my best friend who claims she isn't a dork but who as spend the last ten years worth of Saturdays playing a game that we made up when we were five and who I wish with all my heart that I could love just as much as you love me but because of some stupid part of my brain that doesn't function properly I can't.
G- I...I...How did you? I’ve got to… (Sobbing she runs out of the park and down the street)
B- Mental note...buy a filter.
Kevin’s room- cuddles and confessions
At Kevin’s house. B knocking on the door.
B- Hey you
(Kevin puts the book he was reading on the nightstand)
K- Hey you, come inside (B walks in) sit (gesturing around)
B- (Ignoring the effort to sit, he pulls Kevin’s back against his chest and places his arms around K to clasp, in front of his stomach, propping his chin on the shorter boys shoulder.)
K- (Confused) well this is nice too. (Swiveling around so that they are facing each other) What’s up with you today? You’re awfully quiet. (Taking a shot in the dark) What did I do?
B- (Letting go and falling face down on the bed muffling his response) nothing
K- (Sitting down beside him and rubbing his back) I’m sorry I didn’t catch that; it got muted out by the sound of your face hitting my pillow
B- (Rolling over) You didn’t do anything. Aghh, I just need to buy a filter.
K- What are you talking about? Should I be worried about the water?
B- What are you on about? No, No. I just… (Sheepishly) I may have told Georgia that I know that she’s in love with me.
K- Oh well there’s nothing wrong with that…oh wait, she knows right...about you being…
B- …Oh god yes! No no no, it’s not that... I mean she’s the first person I told.
K- Then what’s the problem? She loves you. So? You love her too, you guys have been best friends since you were in primary school, Ok so maybe it’s not so great that she is In Love with you but talk to her. Tell her you can’t feel the same way…wow wait you don’t feel the same way do you??
B- God no! (sitting up and wrapping his arms around K) I’m in love with you. I wanna be with you. And I tried telling her that I didn’t feel the same way but she just cried and ran away. And then before that when I mentioned you she got this cold look in her eyes as if I suddenly wasn’t her best friend anymore. I don’t know what’s going on Kev.
K- We will figure it out. Have a little faith.
B- What where you reading?
K- I was doing my Bible study.
B- (Picks up a Bible from the bedside table) Read it to me?
K- I didn’t think you had faith in…
B- I have plenty of faith, Kev. Just not in God.
K- What do you have faith in?
B- I have faith in people and that they can sometimes be kind. I have faith in my dad and in you. I have faith that, one day, we can all love freely and be accepted for who we are, no matter race, religion, or gender. I might not live to see that day but I only hope that it happens eventually. I have faith in love; I have a lot of faith in love because I think it will ultimately be the thing that ends suffering. I don’t- I don’t believe in God or Allah or any prophet but I believe love in humanity has the power to break us into the purest creatures possible. We as humans crave affection and attention and love and just…I don’t think there exists a greater power than that of pure light in this world. People try to snuff it out because they’re jealous or unhappy or ignorant but it’s – it’s there. It lives inside of us even if we don’t feel it all the time. And it isn’t God or Buddha or Allah or anything like that.
K- What is it?
B- It’s hope. Just hope.
K- I like that. Hope.
B- I don’t need to have faith in God to have faith in myself. I don’t need miracles or church or hymns. I just need hope. And maybe a little bit of love.
K- I think I’m going to thank God everyday from now on.
B- Why is that?
K- Because silly, God gave me you.
B- You Dork, My Dork.
(He hands Kevin the Bible and leans back on the bed waiting expectantly.)
G’s room- The Bible
G reading the Bible, getting angrier as she reads. Kevin reads Brandon his favorite scriptures.
G- The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness, since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. For since the creation of the world, God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.
K- See what kind of love the Father has given to us that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him.
G- For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like a mortal human being and birds and animals and reptiles.
K- For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.
G-Therefore God gave them over to the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen.
K- But, God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
G- Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural sexual relations for unnatural ones. In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed shameful acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their error.
K- Owe no one anything, except to love each other, for the one who loves another has fulfilled the law.
G- Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done. They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they have no understanding, no fidelity, no love, and no mercy. Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.
K- No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Back at the park- understandings
Brandon and Kevin confront Georgia
B- We need to talk
G- (Angry) Because I love you?
B- (Laughing) You just ended your declaration of love to me with a question mark. But really all jokes aside we need to talk about this. You know I love you right.
B- And I know that you’re in love with me right?
G- (Nodding, tight-lipped)
B – I need you to listen to me okay. I’m always going to love you but I will never be In Love with you. We’ve been friends since we were 5. I don’t know what else to say to you.
G- (Whispered) You could love me, If you tried.
B – We tried that remember. You were my first kiss and when I realized that it didn’t mean anything to me, you were the first person that I ever came out to. You’re the person I told after I had my first real kiss. You know everything about me. I thought you accepted me. Why can you not see that I can’t love you back?
G- (Crying) Because it’s not right. Can you see that? The Bible says ‘a man should not lie with another man the way one lies with a woman. It’s an abomination.’
B- The Bible was written a long time ago, things have changed. And I guess Jesus drove a Honda because all the disciples are in one accord. The bible also says “My lover says to me, come my love” but that can be taken in two different ways. Why can’t the rest of the Bible.
G- God, that’s not how it works. You can’t just take bits and twist them to mean what you want them to.
K- Isn’t that exactly what you’re doing? Taking individual passages and making them into something that they maybe weren’t supposed to be?
G (Turning to Kevin) This is all your fault, convincing him that God accepts gays the same way he accepts pedophiles and murderers. It’s wrong, why can’t you both see that. The Church and the Bible clearly state that…
K- The church and the Bible clearly state that we were all born in God’s image. Do you really think that one day I chose to be gay just because being an outcast for the rest of my life sounded fun? Do you think I chose to be different? To be taunted and bullied and harassed and scorned by those who do believe I deserve to die? Do you really think I chose to be an outcast? This is not a lifestyle choice. This is our life. This is the life that God chose for us. It’s not a choice, it’s a gift. Because if I wasn’t given this gift then I would never have met the person standing next to me.
G- Brandon is not gay he’s confused. He even said it himself, he loves me.
B- Like my sister. I’m not in love with you. I like boys; I’m in love with a boy. I thought my best friend would understand that.
G- Why can’t you see that he’s influencing you into believing you’re something you’re not?
B- Jesus Georgia, Kevin’s not the bad guy here! He didn’t turn me gay. No one did. I was born this way. I’m so sick of this. Why can’t you just accept me like you did before I told you that I knew that you where in love with me?
G- You’re supposed to love me. Not him. You’re not going to be a Fag. It’s disgusting.
G storms off stage, leaving Kevin shocked and B angry and shaken.
Kevin- Don’t you dare listen to her. She’s just ignorant. There’s nothing wrong with us.
G’s room –prayers and decisions
Kneeling centre stage.
Lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For the kingdom,
the power and the glory are yours.
Now and forever.
Help me Father, for I don’t know what to do. Brandon is still in love with that boy. Well, he thinks he’s in love. I know he’s not. I know that you would never intentionally make someone gay and that what he’s doing is a sin. He’s supposed to love a girl. He’s supposed to love me. The Bible says that the lifestyle he’s living is wrong. But I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve never been able to save him. I’ve never been able to save anyone, even Daddy. He and Brandon are so alike. I know that Daddy didn’t believe in you, I know that he isn’t with you, that he made his decisions and that no-one tried to save him. But please, you have to help me save Brandon. Just like the game we always play on Saturdays. He always saves me when it’s just pretend. But how can I save him when he really needs it. It’s just like the game we play. If I don’t save him he will get hurt. I know that you still love him and I know that you will protect him. Give me the courage to save him, Father. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.
(Whispering) It’s just like the game; it’s just like the game…
Picking up her phone
Hey can you come over? I really need to speak to you…
The girl the gunshot Part 2
G stands centre stage back to the audience, looking into a full-length mirror. She holds a pistol in her hand.
A door creaks and Brandon walks in.
She turns, bringing the gun up and aiming it at him.
She fires and he crumples to the ground.
Calmly, she puts the gun down and walks over to where he is now laying. She kneels beside him and lifts his head onto her lap.
G- I had to save you for once. Remember, it’s just like the game. Besides, if I didn’t kill you the bad people would have. It’s just like the game children play.
Is it forgivable?
There is a prayer that’s been called the prayer for hopeless cases. It says: Father, give us courage to change what must be altered, serenity to accept what cannot be helped, and the insight to know the one from the other. Maybe it was never intended as a prayer but as an anthem.
My lover died that night. A gunshot wound, a broken heart. But I didn't find out until hours later. I didn't find out until it was too late. I didn’t find out until his heart stopped and life left him and he was left alone in a cold hospital room whilst his father rang me. She was charged but with an insanity plea and the fact that she was underage she didn't get put away. They wondered how she got the weapon but in the end it didn’t matter. It does not matter to me. What matter is that obviously prayer doesn’t work, because there are still people that make it their mission to fix things that need no alteration. There are people out there still that do not have the insight to know the difference between what must be altered and what should be left alone.
This story is not about right and wrong, because I can’t tell you what to believe. It’s about ignorance and prejudice and it’s about love and acceptance.
And yes, it's just like the games that children play. But if this story-my story and that of the boy I loved- has any moral meaning then it is this. Dear children, let's not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions.